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Been a long long week and not just being another five days but it has also been a very eventful week, in this week i have made more decisions, dreamt more dreams and been to more places than i have been in months...i have seen alot of different sides in people, learnt quite abit and safe to say matured lots more...
Lets get on with the dreams and than i'll get back to life...i dreamt my first dream about friends...i dreamt of a time where all my friends deserted me one after another and i ended up very hurt by all of them, i saw their selfishisness engulf my own needs and happiness....weird dream, i duno why, i gauged this dream to be caused by one thing, people close enuff to me know that there is a very big problem someone close to me is facing and i guess that trust lost by that person made me look at everyone again....
Next on the sweetest dream, it was simply sweet and it reminded me why i love u, yet it is too much to be told here..i'll tell it to ur ear...
Life, i had weird interviews this week, been to alot of new places and saw some new experiences, some too much to behold, but one i hae to share, i always had this notion in my head that the various departments and ministries only hire strong executives u knw the formal and super coat types...but as i went for tis interview i cldnt help but notice people that cld have been on the mrt with me and yet i wldnt have known that this people are goverment employees...it gave me hope that someone like me can be a ministry employee...
And so on, i went into ntu and went to look at various campuses coupled with some chat with my former schmates who are now overseas, i have realli wanted to do it, i got accepted into uni but yet i dunno if its a wise move, financially its a big sum and the cost of payin back my degree is going to take me years and say shld there be a lack of jobs when i come back i might be facing loans that i cant pay off...i hate makin decisions,it was so much easier then, just go to school and parents worried about the school fees...
about life little lessons, i learnt quite abi this week, they say adversity teaches u alot and i have learnt to notice who are the ones i can count on and who are my fair weathered friends..i have noticed alot in people and seen quite abit of changes in people....maybe i was too late in seein this but i guess people wll be people..u jus move on...
Lastly, after weeks of thought and wat to do in life, i guessed i have seen my path and i will set on it...i have found my calling and maybe alil too late but better late than neva aite...
And lastly i have made my decisions on a certain aspect in life and sad to say i am goin to hurt a few people due to this, i am realli sorry kies..i tried my best but my best is only so much..
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